28th, Sun 🎼To live together is a sin, release me, and let me love again🎧 You never open your eyes to look at us, do you? You always live in the surface and assume this beautifully crafted life is real, don’t you? It stops my heart to shout at you: “You call this love? You […]
Author: TheChambermaid
It’s just, terrifying
Remember we talked about there are things we said “we don’t Like/Want now” but one day things turn 360c and “we are starting to Consider, Like, Want even Love it?” I think I shared before but maybe I didn’t make it strong enough to tell you this is something very important to me or effect […]





February 8, 2016
Happy Birthday, and get ready to celebrate! The party starts as soon as we’re together. Words alone are not enough to express how happy I am you are celebrating another year of your life! And today I am so excited to share your special day with you even though there is nothing much we can […]

January
23rd.Sat Today we went to visit two elderly homes. I like volunteering works but I dont like to visit to the unfortunates, because I’m not capable to cleanse my mind after the visits. Why do I often do something that I’m not entirely sure I want to do? I have rejected and avoided this […]













I was wrong…
I was wrong when I said I don’t like to talk about it when I’m upset about something. Precisely, I don’t like to talk about it with just anyone at anytime. I want it to be with a special someone with a good hug if needed, at somewhere I would feel safe, with someone I […]













December
31st.Thu I can list a thousand things on the list of “Why we need a new boat” but only if we want to give up the old boat we are willing to take up new failures from new boat …..I’m sure the list could go on…. Wishing you a Happy New Year with only […]
The Long Hot Shower
Hot water ran through my cold frozen body parts: neck, palms, legs, feet, those areas I couldn’t help them warm when I was outdoor. It feels good now. So good and I wish I never have to stop. When I linger few more minutes to this running hot shower, it has suddenly reminded me the […]

For the Beautiful Lilies
Dear Mom You’re sitting next me waiting for the boarding of flight in the airport but I can only type it here. Please stop saying it’s your fault that you didn’t teach me enough, or it’s dad’s fault because he has abandoned us long ago. It’s more of mine as I’m already an adult. But you’re […]
The Unrevealed
We could use some inspirations in life, a dash of sanity reminders, and ideally a shoulder to lean on. We are creative, adventurous and courages. We have endless needs, wants, desires, and probably 7000 deadly sins. Some are good ones, many are bad ones, who cares- we just want them. But we fail sometimes, big […]


Comfort Zone
– Chapter 2 of Committed, by Liz Gilbert Many years ago, when the bitter divorce struck me out of the sudden, I was trapped in an emotional spiral for a very long time. I came up with a set of questions for myself to evaluate how much I am ready for a change. These are […]

How do we talk in a disagreement?
Have you ever analysed how two people talk in a disagreement? Other than raising voice pitch, acceleration pulse, we had been repeating the point that we were holding against the other person. With the advance of technology we can now flip through old records, when we are calm, and look back what words or sentences […]


November
Monday, November 30th, MMXV “Do you always like passively ?”, said A “That’s a good question…. It changes…. Depends on the situation.You?”, said B “I have no guideline to be passive or not , I think I’m very passive at most of the situation, but then I have the personality that’s as innocent as a […]
Darkness
I am never afraid of being in darkness. However I have a lot of emotions when it comes to darkness, such as a storm with sundown, I get irritated and usually find myself rushing to go back home. I didn’t notice it until one day I came out from cinema with Radnor in total darkness […]

Do you…?
Do you look up to the sky? Do you do star gazing? Do you study the sky? Do you go camping? Fire camping? Do you know how to set up a tent? Do you like to discover islands? Do you like to go into the sea? Do you swim in sea? Do you like to […]
“Ravishing”, he said.
I don’t remember his name, I seriously don’t. I cant even give him any alphabet. “Ravishing” is the first word we communicated so maybe I would call him that. RIP, Ravishing. He was decreased few years ago, few months before their wedding. On FB, I have been collecting .jpg of paintings, sometimes photography. He commented […]




Innocent Love
Some twenty years ago when he was 18, I was 15, we had a our first romance in this small town known as the Pearl of East. I was in St Cecilia’s Girls, he was in St Mary’s Boys. These schools are next to each other and sharing the same bus stop – somewhere we went […]